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here's a song from yester-year. from my defunkt childhood. making out in the desert seems fun though. *grin*
Today by The Smashing Pumpkins
Today is the greatest
Day I ve ever known
Can't live for tomorrow
Tomorrow's much too long
I burn my eyes out
Before I get out
I wanted more
Than life could ever grant
Bored by the chore
Of saving face
Today is the greatest
Day I have ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
Ill tear my heart out
Before I get out
Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
Ive tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings
Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
That I have ever known
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you round
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you
Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever known
Edit: Changed video to imeem, the desert thingy was in the mtv. soz folks!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
happened to rediscover the 2 lovely books hiding on my bookshelf. (with the help of an angel *winks*) it's times like these that makes me feel so old. the movie was shown in cinemas in 1998... and cause i remember catching it then... means i watched it when i was in sec 2??? that's 10 years ago! anyways i'm now trying to get my hands on the vcd... if anyone knows where i can get it... PLEASE help k? meanwhile, youtube doesn't have the songs from the show, but thankfully i managed to find them on imeem. please click play to enjoy. highly recommended!
No More Tears by Beverly
Isn’t it so amazing
How seventeen can be
Isn’t it so exciting
Just like promises novel seems
Colourful pictures on the wall
Always waiting for the telephone call
A cry in the dark
A broken heart
The first time kiss
I’ve seen it all
I’m finally leaving
Nothing left to fear
Someone to believe in
I’ve seen it all so clear
It’s more than a disturbance
It goes on and on and on and on oh yeah ~
This time I finally give in
No more tears
Isn’t just a wonder
How life sometimes turns out
Wouldn’t it be so perfect
If promise comes without a doubt
Colourful pictures on the wall
Always waiting for the telephone call
A cry in the dark
A broken heart
The first-time kiss
I’ve seen it all
I finally live in
Nothing left to fear
There’s someone to believe in
I’ve seen all so clear
It’s more than a disturbance
It’s goes on and on and on and on oh yeah ~
This time I finally give in
No more tears
Bridge
I’m finally leaving
Nothing left to fear
Someone to believe in
I’ve seen it all so clear
This time I am giving in
Giving it to all God
What a little mistake
Promises…
It’s more than a disturbance
It’s goes on and on and on and on oh yeah ~
This time I finally give in
No more tears
No more tears
No more tears…
What I give
What I’ve got
What I give
What I’ve got
What I take each day as it comes
What I give
Whatever I want …….fading
My Special Angel by Ger
Took for granted of those days
Thinking nothin' gonna happen in my way
Know I'm wrong and I regret
For the things I did and things I've said
Come back to my life once more
So my aching heart won't hurt no more
You're my special angel, show me the way
It's just that there is no one who can
Ever take your place
So bring me back the days before
There is so many things
You have to learn from us all
I questioned why you left that day
Didn't say goodbye and left your way
A wave is only what you gave
The image will never fade away
I memorized the things you've said
And I'll carry it on until I'm dead
You're my special angel
Show me the way
Those children needs your lovin'
In each and every way
All I want is only you
Take me now take me far away
Tears before my eyes
Hangin' on forever
Shattered dreams go broken
In all through their lives
Words you always said before
Tell me now that you'll leave no more
You're my special angel
Show me the way
It's just that there is no one who can
Ever take your place
Words you always said before
Tell me now, that you'll leave no more
Cause I know that you're the one
i'm waiting for...
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
they seem to come up to you when you least expect it, catching you by surprise. one moment you are settling into the comfort of habit, next moment you're sprawled all over the floor, in bits and pieces even. wouldn't be much of a problem if you saw it coming from miles away now would it? so how now?
i don't refute the fact that these 'surprises' can cause major upsets at times, the feeling of helplessness, the crushing of dreams, the crashing of your world. but through these, you will only become stronger. 'trial by fire' or the simple idea of metal ore going through the unbearable heat of a kiln, to become the precious metal it is potentially expected to become. i even dare say that god plans these things. i remember watching evan almighty, "Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"
mysterious how the world works, but with these thoughts in my head, i can now safely tread into the unknown and face life with a renewed vigor. we'll get through this baby, i swear, trust me ok? x3
Monday, March 24, 2008
Stop and stare by one republic
This town is colder now
I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move
I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set
on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands just take the wheel
Every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Ohhh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see
They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags I never thought I could
Steady feet don't fail me now,
I'm a run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out, and I'm standing down.
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
But I've become what I can't be
Whoa!!!
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone get scared
I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see?
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
2 years, and i find myself here again. the irony of it all. strangely coincidental. mark this day.
i'm so excited that i can't fall asleep.
p.s. i found the freaking song! built to last by melee. i believe in providence.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
friday: notified last minute to go for the roots concert @ the esplanade, really wished i was told in advance. either way i met the girl that aaron was seeing, turns out i met her before. it's damn freaky how the world is so connected. anyhow the concert was really good! we had front row seats but being a concert people just happily came to the front after the band started. some fucking malay dude just happily stationed himself right in front of me... the worse part is he fucking stole the drumstick the mad drummer threw to us. arsehole. after the concert we head down to mimolette again... had 2 bottles of champagne while standing by the dance floor. and as usual i hate the crowd... josh left halfway due to family stuff and the rest of us stayed till drinks were done. after which... we headed down to thompson for prata. yes i had my first prata bomb. i hate it when they say, 'are you even singaporean? you've never done (insert activity)?' it's not like i'm the most happening person around and i stay at home alot... also i'm not the most adventurous person around... oh well. just ignore it i guess. anyhow i cabbed back after that. sigh. *$$$ flies off*
MAD DRUMMA!
saturday: headed down to aaron's place at 4pm for tennis. he called at 3pm and i had to take a cab down. traffic jam on pie. *more $$$ flies off* we only had an hour of play time and most of it was spent learning how to hit properly. quite useful! anyway we headed down to a vietnamese restaurant for dinner. after dinner we decided it'll be movie night so we went to awfully chocolate to get a cake and video-ez for movies. we got ratatouille, take the lead and another show which i can't remember. in the end we only finished the first 2, after which i went home. luckily dad came after my inexcessant mumbling. or i'd be even poorer.
sunday: which is today, went to town with my bro. we each got a pair of shorts and shoes. both from revoltage and lacoste respectively. the salegirl at revoltage was kinda cute so i asked her for her name, nicole, i really like that name. anyhow that was all i asked. after burning a large hole in my pocket we decided it was best to leave orchard before we decided to get more stuff. and so now i'm home and rotting in front of my com. damages done for today sums up to about 160+ SGD. SIGH. anyways gonna post pics of my new shorts. i really like them alot, but i need to get some tops to match.
front
back
damn nice huh.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
old skool yo. just suddenly youtubed it yesterday. omigod bring back the music!
Don't Cry by Guns N' Roses
Talk to me softly
There is something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin is changin' inside you
And don't you know
Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight
Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby
And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight
And please remember that I never lied
And please remember
how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight
upping the ante.
11:27 AMi do think i need more friends. especially those that stay nearby... people who would be game enough to meet up nearby for impromptu coffee, supper or even just to talk the night away. it's probably a knee-jerk reaction due the the fact that last night was spent lazing on the bed (boredom mostly), and eventually falling asleep at 9pm till next morn. i just hate the feeling of not having things to do when i want to.
either way, sleeping so much actually made me crazy enough to wake up at 630am and go for a run. which is a good thing. josh says it's useless to run at night cause you raise your metabolism before sleeping... so that's effectively wasting it. hopefully this does me more good eh?
another cause for worry of late is well... dad. you would think that at 24... you'd be old enough to decide when to fall asleep. normal dads would probably just knock on the door, tell you not to sleep too late... then go to bed. don't know why my dad has to barge in and have that pissed look on his face and then snap at me to go sleep. fucking hell. i fucking need to move out of the house man.
don't know if i'm supposed to live life this way.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
set in stone.
1:08 AMbusy busy saturday... met xp, ely and qilin at expo today for natas. finally booked tickets! taiwan/hk here we come! oh vincent if you happen to read this... quick go settle your tickets please. IF YOU DON'T COME IN THE END. I'LL KILL YOU.
we spent about 4hrs at expo (longest ever for me, even compared to comex), after which we headed down to lido to catch a movie. seriously... "Two Faces of my Girlfriend" is freaking funny. there were so many moments the whole cinema burst out in laughter. and the characters were all very endearing. i want to watch it again! had dinner at pepper lunch cause the other places all had disgustingly long queues and i think xp couldn't be fucked to wait.
anyways something amazing happened today... specifically... this night... yes... wait for it... i went running. unbelievable? believe! i dunno but i just felt the urge to run. and i ran 6 small rounds around my estate... ok ran 5 rounds and walked for the last one to cool down. BUT. give me the benefit of the doubt ya. people will know how much i dread running... but i feel a little different today, somehow i feel a little more energised after the run... hopefully, this keeps up.
i want to be... many things... but for now... just let me sleep.
random food for thought, "I don't want someone i can live with, i want someone i can't live without."