right now, it feels as if i'm suffocating, it feels like some force is pressing down on my chest. i know that it's hard to believe whatever i say, but that's all i've got. i never once lied to you. and in this instance, i am not even given a chance to explain myself before being damned to the deepest level of hell. i feel maligned, but i understand where you're coming from. how can you put faith in something which once caused you such an immense pain in the past. i don't have an absolute answer.
but i know one thing, is that i love only you. i anxiously wait for you to discover that i'm not that kinda man. i am hopeful and i will pray fervently to god, that he might help give me strength. please help me.
i wish that i woke up right now, and realised that all this is just a nightmare. i really do. f*ck.
